Date:	2004-12-03 17:01
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Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic

Hi everyone,

Amy and I have decided to hit the high road...meaning, we are bouncing out of the entire region!! We have decided to keep a public journal to document everything we are feeling over the next few months. If all goes well, early to mid april will be our departure time. We love you all dearly, and hope you will wish us luck in our journey!

Best,
-Priscilla & Amy.



**Hawaiian Destiny**

Every Gay down in Gayville liked Gay Marriage a lot...... But the Grinch, who lived just east of Gayville, did NOT!! The Grinch hated happy Gays! The whole Marriage season! Now, please don't ask why. No one quite knows the reason. It could be his head wasn't screwed on just right. It could be, perhaps, his Florsheims were too tight. But I think the most likely reason of all was His heart and brain were two sizes too small. "And they're buying their tuxes!" he snarled with a sneer, "Tomorrow's the first Gay Wedding! It's practically here!" Then he growled, with his Grinch fingers nervously drumming, "I MUST find some way to stop Gay Marriage from coming!" For, tomorrow, he knew... All the Gay girls and boys would wake bright and early. They'd rush for their vows! And then! Oh, the Joys! Oh, the Joys! And THEN they'd do something he liked least of all! Every Gay down in Gayville the tall and the small, would stand close together, all happy and blissing. They'd stand hand-in-hand. And the Gays would start kissing! "I MUST stop Gay Marriage from coming! ...But HOW?"

Then he got an idea! An awful idea! THE GRINCH GOT A WONDERFUL, AWFUL IDEA! "I know what to do!" The Grinch laughed in his throat. And he went to his closet, grabbed his sheet and his hood. And he chuckled, and clucked, with a great Grinchy word! "With this beard and this cross, I look just like our Lord!" "All I need is a Scripture..." The Grinch looked around. But, true Scripture is scarce, there was none to be found. Did that stop the old Grinch...? No! The Grinch simply said, "With no Scripture on Marriage, I'll fake one instead!" "It's one man and one woman," the Grinch falsely said. Then he broke in the courthouse. A rather tight pinch. But, if Georgie could do it, then so could the Grinch. The little Gay benefits hung in a row. "These bennies," he grinned, "are the first things to go!" Then he slithered and slunk, with a smile most uncanny, around the whole room, and he took every benny! Health care for partners! Doctors for kiddies! Tax rights! Adoptions! Pensions and Wills! And he stuffed them in bags. Then the Grinch, with a chill, Stuffed all the bags, one by one, in his bill.

Then he slunk to the kitchen, and stole Wedding Cake. He cleaned out that icebox and made it look straight. He took the Gay-bar keys! He took the Gay Flag. Why, that Grinch even took their last Gay birdseed bag! "And NOW!" grinned the Grinch, "I will pocket their Rings." And the Grinch grabbed the Rings, and he started to shove when he heard a small sound like the coo of a dove. He turned around fast, and off flew his hood. Little Lisa-Bi Gay behind him sadly stood. The Grinch had been caught by small Lisa-Bi. She stared at the Grinch and said, "My, oh, my, why?" "Why are you taking our Wedding Rings? WHY?" But, you know, that old Grinch was so smart and so slick He thought up a lie, and he thought it up quick! "Why, my sweet little tot," the fake Shepherd sneered, "The judges are evil, the other states weird." "I'll fix the rings there and I'll bring them back here." It was quarter past dawn... All the Gays, still a-bed, all the Gays still a-snooze when he packed up and fled. "Pooh-Pooh to the Gays!" he was grinch-ish-ly humming. "They're finding out now no Gay Marriage is coming!" "Their mouths will hang open a minute or two then the Gays down in Gayville will all cry Boo-Hoo!"

He stared down at Gayville! The Grinch popped his eyes! Then he shook! What he saw was a shocking surprise! Every Gay down in Gayville, the tall and the small, was kissing! Without any bennies at all! He HADN'T stopped Marriage from coming! IT CAME! Somehow or other, it came just the same! And the Grinch, with his grinch-feet ice-cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling: "How could it be so?" "It came without lawyers, no papers to sort!" "It came without licenses, came without courts!" And he puzzled three hours, till his puzzler was sore. Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before! "Maybe Marriage," he thought, "doesn't come from the court. Maybe Marriage...perhaps... comes right from the heart. Maybe Marriage comes from all the words the Gays say. Words like Husband, like Wedding, and Spouse who is Gay." And what happened then...? Well...in Gayville they say that the Grinch's small brain grew three sizes that day! And the Gays had their Weddings. They promised for life. They swore to be faithful, to Wife and her Wife. The Husbands were happy, to each other they vowed To be Out and be Honest, be Gay and be Proud. They told all their neighbors and friends of their Spouse, They told of their Marriage and sharing their house. They said "We got Married." They shouted it loud. Their marital status was "Married and Proud." And the minute his heart didn't feel quite so tight, He whizzed with his load through the bright morning light. And he brought back the rings, cake and Gay birdseed bags! And he... ...HE HIMSELF... hung the Gay Rainbow Flag! ... The Lord looked down, at the proud and the tall, and said "These are my children, and I love them all."

The moral of this story is that we don't need a piece of paper and the approval of the state to get married. We can just get married. Instead of having a committment ceremony, we can have a wedding. Instead of partners, we can have husbands and wives. Instead of calling our relationship a Domestic Partnership or a Civil Union, we can call it a Marriage. Whether any government recognizes it is separate from what we call it. It's a free country and we can call ourselves what we like. In 5 or 10 or 20 years, with plenty of visible same-sex married couples, the world won't see us as strange or scary, we're just the married couple down the street that happens to be gay. Eventually, the legal recognization of our marriages will follow. If we allow ourselves to voluntarily sit in the back of the bus, we'll never make any progress. Rosa Parks had to sit in the front of the bus to make a difference. We must as well. Copyright (c) 2004 by Mary Ann Horton. Permission granted to copy in whole, with attribution. This is a parody of "How the Grinch Stole Christmas."


Please share in your Big Gay Journals...

Cheers,
Priscilla

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Date:	2004-06-17 22:02
Subject:	ya guy.
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Mood:	calm

hiya.

its thursday night, and Im tired. I suppose I should go to bed huh.

okay.

i'l hop on AIM, see if anyones on.. and hit the hay.

tomorrow's FRIDAY.

yay.

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Date:	2004-06-14 08:31
Subject:	Monday
Security:	Public
Mood:	touched

well it was a good weekend. pride was fun.. missed michele and them... did however see douchbag number 1 and 2. which really was just shitty. its amazing the ignorance people can carry with them.

thats okay.. im severing ties as of now.

it really saddens me that i could be involved with a shithead for sooo long, and never realize it until now. It must suck to live life so pissed off at the world.. so ungreatful for the things that life gives you, so ungreatful for the good people in your life. Karma kills.

lol.

so on a lighter note... baby and i had a good time saturday.. we took the puppers for a while, then brought them home and went to the festival. We saw Steph and them which was cool, shes looking good these days! but yes.. then sunday, my mom and I went to the beach.. and i got cooked. then we came back to my house, and my mother did a shot of cuervo, and drank a bottle of wine. Jesus, i dont know where she puts all that alcohol. and then we played a mean game of trivial pursuit. good times.

hmm... oh. i love the dogs. they have issues though.. because their mother doesnt want to take them anywhere.. or love them really... their other relies on us to take care of them.. to love them.. feed them.. walk them.. take them swimming... so they are getting more attached to us now. when shes not home.. they are whining outside our door.... thats okay, i love you too puppers. <3

hey, i have the best girlfriend ever. I am greatful for you everyday that passes. I pray that I never lose you. I love you.

Date:	2004-06-11 08:12
Subject:	yeee haaaaaaaaaa
Security:	Public
Mood:	lazy

well its friday. we've made it. one more week down.

so pride is this weekend... and im really not all that excited to go. for the first time in my life.. i dont need anyone else. i dont need people to think im super sexy, i dont need people to check out my girlfriend to make me realize how lucky i am... all this shit is already set. so there really isnt a reason for me to go to pride.

Pride to me, is just a huge group of people parading around, being gay... which is cool. then you get the one underlying reason most people are there: to either get laid, feel sexy, get checked out, cause drama... and of course.. be the coolest gay person known to man. whatever.. but i just dont think im down for that this year. now this is just my personal opinion... but when i go to gay bars... or pride parades... im not going to support a "cause" im going because of all the reasons above. now call me -happy. call me -jaded. call me whatever... but i dont see the need this year. does that mean im not going? NO. but it does mean i will re-evaluate my reasonings for attending events such as this.

My girlfriend has "Pink Eye". and I sat there and said to myself when she started itching it... uh oh. like ive seen people go through hell with that shit... Jillian being one of them. it used to nearly incapacitate her. and i took one look at my girlfriend and saw the pinkness coming.. and i said DAMN! get a tea bag now!! lol.. poor thing.

well i was having a bit of anxiety about work today.. i dont know why.. but for somereason, i think that people pay far more attention to me than they really do. And the reason i think that is out of sheer paranoia, derived from guilt. so my mental health is well.

ok.. gonna go put around for a while.. read the horoscopes, la de da....

have a nice day!

hahaha.

i do the stupidest things sometimes.

sometimees i swear that i forget men exist in this world. i was just surfing Msn.com.... and all the sudden there was this little mini icon like picture of a mans chest... and i was like

"Oh yea. what do they call those again... riiiight. men."

pfft. i know its rude to say.. but that just shows how little attention i pay to them. where i can forget their every ounce of existence at the drop of a dime.

but you k now what? i bet gay men can do the same.

lol.

Date:	2004-06-10 08:45
Subject:	yup
Security:	Public
Mood:	optimistic

so i played hookie yesterday.

...and went to a job interview.

what a "Star Employee" huh?




yea.. so from 12 to 5:30 we were sitting in swealtering heat outside of the job interview place. Its for the New Horizons Waltham location. Shes going for the position I hold now, and Im going for a different position.. Instructor. I've never considered going for instructor before.. what a career change that would be. But seriously I was interviewed for 2 and a half hours. with 3 different people.. it was hell. I seriously thought i was going to die. It was heavy pressure... and i almost cracked. whew. Anyhow... So I left with a totally different idea of a career with the Waltham location that I had when I walked in.

So, last night was great. Amy and I played Phase 10, and watched the thunder and lightning. She brought up the idea of stopping drinking. I am not opposed. Everytime we are drinking, we start to fight. What good does that do us? Anyhow, I just got done writing emails to the people I met with yesterday. Saying that you for their time.

that may have been a good move.

hmm.. i wonder what my horoscope says today.

Date:	2004-06-08 08:24
Subject:
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Mood:	chipper

well now.

so its a happy tuesday morning... and I've realized that listening to classical music and sitting in morning rt 3 traffic just isnt all that bad. of course, I dont have any flying mammals to save or anything.. or a pink purse to return... but i suppose i can be happy with morning traffic.

so today has been wonderful so far.. of course its 8:26 in the morning. I believe i still have 9 hours till freedom.

For the first time... i wish i didnt have a big black tribal tattoo smack-dab in the middle of my forearm. Its a beautiful day, and i have to wear a long sleeve shirt. great. i love working for the man.

which reminds me. a year ago today, i was setting up a grill and preparing food for the hot dog cart. I was grubby, wearing big jeans and a tank top... ready to serve the public. good times.. good times.



so i started thinking about the post i put up yesterday about memories. and then i started thinking about the 'happy' thoughts that get repressed. why would people want to repress the happy thoughts? i have no idea.. but i know that applies to myself. like i remember myself saying all these shitty things about my life.. and then remembering that there were good times. like the time my mother took me to see sarah mclachlan, and the time my father would take me sledding with blackie. (blackie was my dog, that before its death, had 3 legs)

Blackie loved to pull me on the sled. that was probably one of the highlights of her life.

so happy memories get repressed too. maybe its that an entire block of time gets repressed... i dont know.. but some food for thought.



hey. i love my friggin little sexy leo... mmm... who loves kitty..?? I DO!

oh, and i figured out why relationships dont last. you must completely worship eachother in every way... especially between a leo and a virgo. if you dont, the whole thing will cave.

i'll continue to worship you baby, if you continue to worship me... <3

**ATTENTION**



My friend has 4 available No Doubt / Blink 182 tickets to tomorrow nights show.



If you or anyone you know would like them... shes selling them for $40.00 each.

She paid $60.00 each.

Her friend she was going with died yesterday, and she needs to get rid of them.

Let me know if anyones interested @ priscilla_rae@hotmail.com

thanks!!

Date:	2004-06-07 13:53
Subject:
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Mood:	anxious

Cristina! Where are my exciting LiveJournal posts I so eagerly look forward to everyday???







;)

Date:	2004-06-07 08:32
Subject:
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Mood:	loved

Jesus that was sad.

i can only imagine what it is like to experience that. at such a young age. I feel for you.

Anyhow, so we went to the Aquarium on saturday... how nice that was.

Ever think of your memories as a child? I wonder sometimes... why it is we remember what we remember, and forget what we forget. Why some things are traumatic and are as vivid as yesterday, and somethings are traumatic and are repressed into oblivion. strange. who decides and why.

I think i carry alot of repressed memories. I have a hard time facing them. facing my mother. and ultimately, as much as i'd never like to admit it.. my father. for not really being there. for showing me what physical abuse feels like. and my mother, for showing me how cold people can be in this life. but- by gones be by gones. im growing now, older and wiser. forgiving more. coming to terms. its good.

I wouldnt trade anything in the world to be raised any differently that i have been. It has made me who I am. Every ounce of hardship, has given me 2 ounces or character. now who couldnt use a little more character...

ultimately, the good Lord has given me this time now. To make peace within myself... take it. Your job does not equal your happiness, priscilla. Don't worry about it.

The good Lord takes care of His own.

Someone once told me that....thanks.

Date:	2004-06-04 11:44
Subject:
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Mood:	cranky

Friday.

yah.

the day is getting better as it goes along i suppose. but Im still kinda fuckin shitty.

Last night was hell again. I cant stand it. I will not stand it. How many times do we need to go through this? its unacceptable in a relationship. I want out. <~ the virgo in me


my rationalism ~> well shit happens. people make mistakes. alcohol sucks. get over it.


grreeeeat.

OH! guess whos performing in a drag show????

yup.

me.

thats just grand.

and better yet, its gonna be sexy. but its a surprise.

Date:	2004-06-03 08:30
Subject:	yah.
Security:	Public
Mood:	blank

well okay. its thursday. I woke up the strangest I have ever woken up before. almost like i hadnt slept at all, but i was extremely refreshed at the same time. does that make any friggin sense? Anyhow, so I was 10 minutes late for work today becacuse people on the road, saw an accident and decided to make it their entire life. great.

whatever though. I am wide awake, almost as if I drank a redbull. but I didnt.

mmm, I had great sex last night.

::apologizes if i'm rubbing it in anyones face::

maybe thats why i woke up so refreshed. i was sleeping by 10:30 too.

So i have heartburn this morning, and I am hungry. I am supposed to go out for Thai on lunch today not sure if thats happening or what. mmm. duck. yah. whatelse.

nothing for now.

enjoy your day!

chamomile. good stuff.

well it feels like monday.. and low and behold its wednesday. now isnt that just little drops of heaven.

so im thinking of changing my living situation again... i know, i know... God forbid I stay in one place long enough to get comfortable... but I have that craving for change on a regular basis.

I have moved 22 times in 21 years.

see now, that could be my problem. i keep feeding the addiction. the addiction of moving.. or change. but I dont really know how else to satisfy it. because if i dont move, then when it comes time to move, I dont want to. so maybe I need to find a place, where I wont have to move out of if i dont want to, and stay there. sorry to say, wakefield isnt it.

now dont get me wrong, I love wakefield. its cute, happy and gay friendly. not to mention close to boston, saugus etc. soooo, its 10 am, and I am eating a box of junior mints. I love these fucking things. and they're low fat too. lol..

so just to mention that i have the most fabulous girlfriend in the world, a few weeks ago, her and I were driving down the road... talking... and i told her that i thought i was unhappy here... and she said to me: if you want to move back to Portland, we can. so i thought about it and said... im not sure. Portland generally made me happy. its cute. eclectic. diverse. happy. i just loved it.

At this point i dont know what to think about it because im not sure I wasnt to make that drastic move again... and ultimately, i feel as if id be taking 2 GIANT steps back. and I want to move forward with my life... not backward. so.. portland is probably a no.

I guess im just going to have to get used to my surroundings here. maybe move a little further down.. or just elsewhere. maybe north. maybe REALLY far away. who knows. who knows where you'll take me.

<3

Date:	2004-06-01 10:31
Subject:	OH
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic

and the best part about the whole thing...

is my brand new spiffy ( TOY )

I am so in love with it.

Date:	2004-06-01 09:03
Subject:	weekend.
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy

I had great weekend.

me + you + tent + woods + campfire = the best thing ever.

It was great. I am such a camping fanatic.

so yes. aside from losing almost half of our camping gear off the roof of the Xterra... and the dalmations whining... and the sub-zero temperture... it was fabulous.

and i must recommend a two man sleeping to anyone. aww.... ;);)

Date:	2004-05-28 08:59
Subject:
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Mood:	satisfied

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1. Spiders
2. Polititians
3. Losing myself

THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH
1. Amy
2. Tubbo
3. Cristina from lj

THREE THINGS I LOVE
1. Great Sex
2. Compatibility
3. Warm fuzzy feelings

THREE THINGS I HATE
1. Assholes
2. Pricks
3. Men

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
1. War
2. Religion
3. People still see Race

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
1. Cactus
2. Teddy bear from daddy dearest
3. phone book

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. Sky dive
2. move far away
3. let go

THREE THINGS I CAN DO
1. Give great oral sex
2. Laugh histerically
3. Spend tons of money

THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO
1. get off by a human
2. relax
3. let go

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1. accustomed
2. Leisurely
3. retentive

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO
1. Sarah
2. NH public radio
3. your heart

THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD (HAVE TO) LISTEN TO EVER
1. polititians
2. men
3. G.W.A.R.

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS
1. Stouffers Mac n Cheese
2. Prime Rib with Au Jus
3. Ham and Cheese hot pockets

THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN
1. to fly a plane
2. to pee standing up
3. to not be a chamelion

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY
1. Pepsi in a can
2. Miller High Life
2. Fountain soda

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID
1. Punky Brewster
2. Reading rainbow
3. Pinwheel
4. Adventures of Teddy Ruxbin
5. You cant do that on television

Date:	2004-05-27 08:43
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic

what a motivational horoscope this morning.

Thursday May 27th 2004

There's no doubt about it. You're hot. You're fast and furious whether you're taking care of business or playing games better than anyone else can understand. Cosmic heat turns up the volume on all of your endeavors. There's good news everywhere you go. Maybe you hear what you need to hear. Maybe you're the bolt of revelation that brightens someone else's day. This is one case when just showing up can make all the difference. You see nothing but promise and potential when you look in the mirror. On a day like this, it's hardly surprising that you would come first.


I feel like a million bucks in this suit. very professional... I just took care of a bunch of business...

FUCKING MADE MY SALES GOAL THIS MONTH

Life seems to be goooooood.

mmm.

be back... need to bask in a little enjoyment for a minute.

I cant believe i made my sales goal.

I feel so good.

THANK YOU, LORD.